@LaurenxAshton I was walking the streets of London last night when I got an alert…it was a reminder of the day you commissioned. I stop and sat along the Thames. I wasn’t sad per se, more thankful and then proud of you.
@LaurenxAshton 2day would have been 10 years on that bend on I64 when I grabbed ur hand 2 calm ur hysterics & tell u, no promise, that I would marry u. It seems like yesterday. we r further apart than the day we met. Ive accepted that this isnt the lifetime, i await 4 the next
@LaurenxAshton happy 12 years in the Army. I’m so proud that you’ve stayed the course with this journey & it’s led u 2 amazing things you thought weren’t possible. You’ve come a long way and have so much more to go!
@LaurenxAshton it doesn’t feel like 5 yrs since u woke me up with a call to tell me I’m ur forever Valentine and how much you wish u were in bed with me to wake me up with kisses and say it in person. Those thoughtful moments by u I miss the most.
@LaurenxAshton How I could feel ur smile & tears through the phone, 9000 miles away. How u saying those same words 2 me, freed me & allowed me to repeat them 2 u without hesitation. Thank u 4 that. Thank u 4 that day. Thank u 4 freeing me. Thank u 4 loving me. I love you. A&F
@LaurenxAshton its amazing how three words can change everything. How when theres nothing those words & the memories fill the void. I remember in detail me saying those words, how scared I was 2 say them & free I was when I finally said them.
@LaurenxAshton I used 2 be so guarded about my feelings & opening up. U changed that about me u made me face my fears & embrace my emotions. I dont regret u doing that 2 me. In fact 8 years ago 2day I wrote u the most pure & truthful letter ever as u left me 4 the first time. ILY
@LaurenxAshton happy birthday. 28 yo. I think of all the birthdays we shared & how we really only got 2 celebrate a few of them 2gether. I cherish those moments & miss that we didnt have more. Actually I miss celebrating u & that u were born & entered my life. ILYSM & proud of u
@LaurenxAshton I saw this & laughed because this is the type of stuff that made us laugh.Our weird sense of humor.I could be myself around u, vice-versa then something happened & it was gone. I hope u found it and held onto it. I hope when Av does something like this you laugh.
@LaurenxAshton its weird. 8 years. I think of what could have been. That for 8 years we could still b sharing stories & laughs. Adventures & frustration Love & family God I miss us. Some days are harder than others were uttered 8 years ago. some days turned into everyday. I luv u
@LaurenxAshton 4 years ago u made a decision. 1 I believe u would have never made. 1 that drove a divide in us, our future, our family that would haunt u 4 the next year and ultimately u left. Thats the hard part 4 me. Thinking I could have done something 2 make u stay. I miss us
@LaurenxAshton Happy Mothers Day. I always wanted to say that 2 u. Just under different circumstances and a different future. I'm happy u don't fear motherhood anymore, just wished u saw what I did in u many life's ago. U are not ur past, u shape ur future. A&F
@LaurenxAshton 4 years ago ur goal 2 b an officer in the US Army was realized. I was lucky to b able 2 witness the hard work & determination u put in over the previous 3 years. I try 2 remember the good parts of this day not the heartache. Notably just a day with u & that smile
@LaurenxAshton it snowed today. 7 years ago it did the same and it gave me 1 more day with u, 1 more nite to hold u in my arms. Then I left u for the 1st time. Promising myself never 2 do that again. What I would do 4 one more day with u, another nite with u in my arms. A4F
@LaurenxAshton woke up this morning sad. Not because u weren't there but I couldn't remember the cereal u wanted on our first Christmas morning 7 years ago. I've learned to live without u but don't know how to live without our memories. I miss us and all the memories left unmade
@LaurenxAshton I'll never 4get the look u gave me when I told you that I was going to marry u. 7 years later those tearful eyes filled with love still haunt me. I figured by now we would be married, spending our 7th anniversary on a tropical island, just us, just in love.