I feel like one day when I’m gone someone will find this account. When they read through it they will see that I was trying hard! Struggling but giving it my all.
I begged a dude for 3 years to get his act right and it seemed like the more I begged the worse he got. The more I cried the less he cared! The more I gave the more he took! The more I did the less he saw!! I was mentally, physically & emotionally drained. I finally left not because I didn't love him anymore but because I couldn't love him anymore. It was so unhealthy I was not wanting to live anymore. I saw a post that said “You either gonna keep letting him hurt you or love yourself enough to move on!” Finally I remembered the hurt I felt. I remembered crying begging for him to love me. I remembered endless nights I didn't sleep, I barely ate. I remember lying to everyone, about every time he broke my heart. I remember everything that man did to me that made me feel less of a woman and at that moment was when I knew I was really done. We try so hard to forget the hurt in our heads but our hearts never do no matter how much we forgive. Stop forgetting & remember because love shouldn't hurt. 💯
Real soulmates always end up back fucking w each other. You lose each other to find one another again, that’s what it’s like when somebody is meant for you
May you never again get attached to anyone who isn’t for you. May you find a love that makes you laugh, never lets the honeymoon phase end and gives you unconditional loyalty. Someone who adores your childlike playfulness AND your old soul – a love you never have to heal from