As I'm getting closer to 100,000 followers it increasingly feels like nothing short of an inspired edit combining a variety of clips or a truly legendary clip with excellent caption can make a post compete with my best performing posts. Feels like being throatfucked with likes, I'm trying my best, I love it, I couldn't be more grateful. Shallow strokes are easy, surely I can get over 1k likes on every post. But I can't help but feel like I need it balls deep to be proud of myself, I can't allow myself to have peaked so early, nothing short of everything I could possibly give will satiate me, and that will be the bare minimum my audience deserves. I'm honored by each and every individual who remembers my name, even more so by those who choose to financially support me. My lust for attention is absolute. I need more likes. >~< #femboy