#HUHYUNJIN Weverse Post
"I am not who I was a year ago.
I have a new favorite artist.
I drink a different coffee.
I do more or less the same things, but I think in a way that the person from a year ago did not know how.
For better or for worse, this trilogy has been a memorable experience.
I write this in remembrance of the past year โ all the unfathomable joy and unfathomable pain, and of the questions life begged of me โ because I want you to understand why it means so much to be here with you today.
All of last year, I had asked myself, โHow do we survive this?โ
โTo surviveโ by definition means to continue to exist, in spite of an ordeal or hardship.
While I wish just simply existing had come easy, despite my best efforts, I do not remember feeling all that existent.
What I do remember, rather, are waves of debilitating shame, doubt, envy and emptiness.
I remember nights of doomscrolling through comments, knowing I shouldnโt, when even my morality failed to suppress the longing for someoneโs kindness.
I remember loneliness.
I remember fear of the end. That what started as the small fire of my dreams had gotten so uncontrollably big that I was losing everything I knew.
How is this surviving, when I feel like I am dying?
But what surviving really is, the past year has taught me, is an experience contingent on accepting a kind of death.
Just as building muscle is feeling weak
and building knowledge is feeling dumb,
fighting to exist is allowing yourself to fall apart.
I suppose Rilke was right when he wrote that clarity cannot be given to you unless you first live your question.
Because the more I got up and asked, โis this the right way to go on?โ
I found myself gradually experiencing my answer.
The answer was in my refusal of apathy.
It was in the dinners I had with my members.
In the calls with my family.
In the small talk, which was never truly small, with our staff.
In the letters from those who love me, their pensive pen and colored paper.
It was at TeamLab, it was at Weverse Con.
It was the sweat on the dance studio floor.
It lived in the music I saved.
Even the tear-stained pages of my diary, they all had the claw marks of my love persevering.
Love persevering โ it is the embodiment of this album.
I am thankful for the experience EASY, CRAZY, HOT has been.
I am thankful for the many versions of myself it took to meet the person Iโve come to know today.
She is not perfect, but she knows how to stay grounded.
She is stronger, wiser, and closer with the people she loves.
I like her.
In fact, I might even love who I am right now.
And sheโs rocking the ginger hair, if I do say so myself.
Anyone who dares to love cannot make it through intact.
I know that now.
If there is any wisdom you can take from this letter, it is most of all that.
Pain means I am changing.
What a beautiful, exciting thing.
And whoever Iโm becoming,
Iโm sure Iโll learn to love her too."
๐จ| Taylor Swift has officially performed "Crazier" from "Hannah Montana The Movie" for the FIRST TIME EVER on 'The Eras Tour'! #EdinburghTSTheErasTour
Itโs a 2am surprise: The Tortured Poets Department is a secret DOUBLE album. โ๏ธ Iโd written so much tortured poetry in the past 2 years and wanted to share it all with you, so hereโs the second installment of TTPD: The Anthology. 15 extra songs. And now the story isnโt mine anymoreโฆ itโs all yours. ๐ค
https://t.co/Mc0L20io4X
The Tortured Poets Department. An anthology of new works that reflect events, opinions and sentiments from a fleeting and fatalistic moment in time - one that was both sensational and sorrowful in equal measure. This period of the authorโs life is now over, the chapter closed and boarded up. There is nothing to avenge, no scores to settle once wounds have healed. And upon further reflection, a good number of them turned out to be self-inflicted. This writer is of the firm belief that our tears become holy in the form of ink on a page. Once we have spoken our saddest story, we can be free of it.
And then all thatโs left behind is the tortured poetry.
THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT is out now: https://t.co/PzuwWnatO7
Um ok this is unreal?? I just wanted to say to anyone who listened to my music this year, anywhere in the world, thank you. Getting named Spotifyโs Global Top Artist in 2023 is truly the best birthday/holiday gift you couldโve given me. Weโve seriously had THE MOST fun this year out there on tour and now this. Are you serious. So I was trying to think of a way to thank you, and a lot of you have been asking me to put โYouโre Losing Me (From The Vault)โ on streaming... so here you go! You can finally listen EVERYWHERE now ๐
https://t.co/pEpPzQMsM5