Ive had the chance to meet a girl for a few weeks but ugh
I got 0 confidence in my social skills
N im seriously scared of meeting a girl that could manipulate me
But like this is my only option now to solve loneliness
If it was a guy i wouldnt be so afraid
But idk ugh
I watched a yt video
"The Psychology of People Who Never Leave Home"
And it kinda terrified me
Like that shit could be insanely harming to my mental state
I need to do smth about it
Im struggling n I don't like it
Idk how tf im gonna get myself out of depression with the loner state im in
Maybe a new girl but im scared of going in a new relationship
I really jus want a person i can constantly talk to n be with
Its just girls are usually better at that
Calling me dumb is fuckin dumb atp (i needa ego boost post)
I know every fuckin capital, funfacts,location n flag of every country
Made a 400 page long comic book
Can properly rap
Been alone for so long that ive trained my mind for years everyday
Im fuckin intelligent fuck yall
Ethiopia got insanely dope war history
While whole Africa was bein colonized Ethiopia literally won the war against a huge Italian colony
They always fought back insanely hard when Europeans tried to conquer it and were insanely strong in military compared to other africanNations
When dad took me to that christian rehab center
I realized sum shit
So i was in a room with ton of ppl praying, pretending i was christian.
A man prayed for me and YELLED HIS ASS OFF GIBBERISH, i did not feel SHIT not a single shit
While he was goin crazy
PLACEBO IS DANGEROUS
I fucking hate the way my dad is christian
I cant show my dad the new south park episodes, EVEN IF HE WAS THE ONE WHO INTRODUCED ME TO IT
I have to constantly fake that im christian, pray when i dont want to
N him jus yapping about shit that i dont believe in
Its uncomfortable
Ive watched so many "disturbing unexplained phenomenas" videos on YouTube
That im starting to see the same incidents explained for the third to FOURTH time
And they're not even that popular๐