Itโs my small way of paying forward the gift that others gave me. A reminder that weโre in this together no matter how isolated we feel. That itโs possible to heal and connect no matter how dysfunctional we feel. That love can overcome fear and shame. That we donโt have to do it alone
I had a pleasant bipolar up swing a few weeks ago. I was walking Casey every day. Going out (in public!!) to do admin at a cafe. It was amazing. Then it was followed by a sudden down swing. Two weeks of low energy, body aches, staying inside for days, getting no work done, talking to no one.
The reason I toss this into the void, besides just getting it off my chest, is bc I know Iโm not alone in this experience, struggling to carry and hide this shame. The vulnerability of strangers, online and irl, helps it feel lighter and easier to manage. Itโs the key to connection, to our humanity
I feel like shit bc I spent all day over-eating/sleeping trying to avoid reading these messages
His โexplanationโ seems valid but my nervous system goes fucking haywire when it gets the faintest whiff of male entitlement/covert manipulative behavior so idk if it even matters now