When you are so familiar with the pattern of events that hurt you in the past .. you even remember how you felt back then and sensing its going to happen again feels like there's a knot in your chest making it hard to breathe......again......
some of us just like to be alone and that's how we prefer to do things. we don't like big groups or parties, but we're not unhappy or lazy. we just like our own company or that of a few close friends and family. it's just who we are, and that's okay !