It's not that i want to off myself, i just want my life to change around to where im not some bozo living check to check with no friends. I want to not be depressed, i want to go outside with a smile on my face. I just want to be happy.
I just dont think im making it to 27' man.
Generally wish I was happy. Im 27 and not getting any younger. Poor life choices and a terrible case of being an introvert. I honestly need a restart or to just sleep forever so i can atleast dream of a better life. The few times i thought i could be wrong +
+ i got hit with the reality that I was never meant for greatness. Situationships after situationships, losing my car in 2021, just being a fat loser all my life is just terrible. Online has always been a escape from reality but these few months, its just not working.
I remember always telling myself i'd off myself before 30 and the older I get, the more true it's starting to feel. It sucks being an adult and i'm lacking affection and my mental is just tanking every other day.
No one believes my issues at home or get told to suck it up.