At some point you really have to tell yourself "this is not an experience I want to keep having" and stop entertaining things that don't benefit you in any way.
I’m the girl who handles all her hard days in silence. I don’t complain much, I don’t always ask for help, & I rarely vent. I carry my own weight & I’ll always move through life with that I’ll figure it out mindset.
I think my biggest takeaway from this year is that God listens. He pays attention. He may not give you an answer in 6 hours or 6 months, but when he does, he answers all the parts. He may be quiet sometimes but he’s only bidding His time. He’s never ignoring you.