it’s not worth it anymore. but i have a duty to make sure Brandon grows into a better me & that my Grandma knows i’m here for her how she & my grandad (father) have always been for me. but it’s soooo hard man.
my brother told me “you quit cigarettes damn near 2 1/2 years ago cold turkey. so why the fuck can’t you quit weed”? & that shit gave me the kick in the ass that i needed.
i’ve come to terms with the fact that my life will end sooner rather than later. BUT while i’m here i’m focused on doing for myself & the ones who i care about & who GENUINELY care about me in return.
i gave up trying for mfs friendships, brotherhoods, family shot, relationships, ALL THAT. i came to the realization that if you duck with me you not only gnnasay it but you’ll ACT LIKE IT as well. & if you don’t no hard feelings but we can go our seeeate paths. wish you the best.
i’m starting to understand i became way to dependent on weed. it was a time i could write a whole mixtape sober, now i can’t even focus to write a smooth 16 bars smh.