someone putting you through the same pain twice means they hate you... i'm sorry but there's just no other way to justify how you hurt someone, see the pain you've caused, etc, do whatever it takes to get them to trust & love you again just to put them through it all over again.
that “fed up” stage hits different. where nothing they say or do at that point will change your mind. you gain the strength & fight to want better, to want more. the thought of settling disgusts you & although you’re scared. you’re ready for the life you deserve. it’s everything.