@NilesR3 It’s very different, but I’m special in the fact that anal can make me cum so much harder. It just hits different really, when I get plowed in my ass I like how tight it feels and how gaped I feel? Like I’m really gripping a cock with everything I got
sorry I always felt undesirable my entire life and it gave me k!nks of wanting someone to desire me so extremely it's uncontrollable for them as if that's my fault
the smallest amounts of reassurance mean SO much. random messages like "I'm not mad at you", "you're not annoying me", "i'll text you later", "promise I'll be back" and "i'm not going anywhere" is such a relief