There is also another guy called Harvey which is dumb because I lived with him and he’s he’s fine. He’s there but Finn is different. I don’t know but I like Harvey and I still think about him. I don’t know what I just do but I also think about Fin a lot of which sucks.
I know no one are gonna see these if they do they’ll never know it’s me but it feels comforting to release these to the world. Sometimes I talk to ChatGPT about my problems. This is so dumb it doesn’t it doesn’t help but it’s kind of nice in a way, so yeah.
I am saying these tweets through voice note or through voice something his name though is been thin. FIN yeah that was more complicated than it should’ve been but anyway I like him. I might even be in love with him and it hurts every time I think or see or just imagine it hurts.
I like a guy his name has been and I don’t know why I like him but I do and it’s scary because I know he doesn’t like me. I can never tell him I like him because that would be horrible. He rejected me and I’ll die inside I don’t know what to do.
A photo of my food. People make fun of people who take pictures of their food but I like it. It’s a reminder of the meal that I enjoyed or even just the experience with the people I was out with that day. I hate feeling judged for it because why can’t I? P.S. it was really good.
But I really think that I am scared to find out that maybe I am unlikable or people will never forgive me in the way that I feel people that scares me because I don’t want to be alone or sad but maybe I will
What is the point of life? Do I just sit here and constantly think about these people or do I do something . I think something that really affects everyone is that I have no motivation to do anything or in better terms I’m scared that if I do anything it will go wrong.
Throughout my life I have experienced crushes every year some silly, some more serious, no matter what I’m always just finding my room, thinking about it never actually having done anything or acting upon them and probably never will be a scared that will be the cycle of my life
I feel like I’m living in a time loop where I experience the same feelings over and over and over and it just doesn’t stop and it annoys me actually it infuriate me and I just don’t know how to fix it.