High empathy sucks cause when you understand why people are the way they are you realize most people aren't truly evil they're just dumb and incapable of viewing the world outside of their own experiences which makes it hard to truly hate them even if they are ugly inside.
Don't give grief more than its due. It's already going to be heavy and take up a lot of space. Just see it for what it is. Even the slightest overstatement can make the weight feel countless times heavier. You must travel light or atleast make the weight feel manageable.
Doing endurance sports for endurance is privilege. Real endurance is life. With races that are not timed, stretching into years to even out generational status. The races where only the race wins. No shiny leaderboards. Just a branch in the family tree that made it or failed.
Try seeing the worst days in life for what they are, a day, a week, maybe a year or 5 years of outrunning dread and then life goes on. Collectively, the days on which life goes on would still outnumber days that pull us back. No reason to hold yourself back. Practice the default.
Even if one gets all other hang ups. Humankind's own capacity of understanding and empathy leaves very little hope. Yes, understanding may have peaked but not empathy. It's too risky to feel nowadays. Everyone stays at a baseline of casualness.
I finally came to the conclusion that I hate my face just enough to not start a YouTube channel or a reel account. That and it feels purposeless now. I think expression at large is meaningless as algorithms have matured. Now AI is out for written expression as well.
A human watches another human for extended periods of time. First they are amused, then maybe they are entertained, gratified, and finally they wait for the other to fall, to prowl on them with a sense of power. That's humanity or at least its group psychology.
There'll be some crushes to mute as well. Heart's not broken but a man can't afford to make it weaker. The world at large may have beauty to exhibit or love to trade but a man he only has his courage. The heart can't be weak. It should beat like a battle cry.
Hyper sexual skin show on IG may desensitize you to the point of irritation. Intimacy was art with the covers on. Now it feels like a disease. Commoditized and closely traded with identity. Flashed like a trophy representing the mating dreams of unconscious apes with screens.
It's your life and all that but don't smoke and don't vape. As an ex user of both products, the latter is more deadly as it feels comparative harmless but a single vape is like 40-50 packs equivalent of nicotine served like candy without any smoker's odour. It's convenient damage
The dream is always to meditate but the life feels too awake and demanding a neurotic vigilance. Screen time is just a way to stay in fight, fight or freeze. Flighting past timelines, freezing on reels or fighting over memes. It is just vigilance masquerading as addiction.