" you have hair under your arms " im not allowed a razor otherwise ill CUT MYSELF. coming from a girl who also cuts herself btw. ur getting slash flashed on monday ;-; watch it bitch
I wish I knew someone that I didn't like and i had constant drama with so I could be more aggressive and hold grudges against so i could hold this defense mech up so i felt less vulerable. PRAYING for someone to betray me
insecurity has blessed me, its like a safety guard to like, not do too much. constantly worrying about how im presenting myself has made me inconsistent and that inconsistency has become predictable and a balance of the perfect inbetween. I am perfect.
I want my apathy to intensify, I want it to debilitate me and my feeling, I want to feel nothing to push me to do something to stop it. make me YEARN to feel something.
I don't understand what actually matters anymore, not even coming from a suicidal view anymore. letting go of care has been easier lately, or maybe I'm just not in the right head right now. I feel like I could recover from anything. I will be invincable, I can lose anything.
i cant tell if im losing or if im gaining, but something is happening and i dont know if i should let it take over me like it has time and time again just for it to burn every single time. One last chance?