Can we talk about how fucking exhausting it is, constantly trying to distract yourself from your own mind? not being able to have any real time to relax yourself because you’re so terrified of your own head, because it’s so mentally and physically draining
Wow. In six hours 5 of my accounts will be gone forever. I had 7. and I did my daylies on all of them every single day for 2 years.
It was the first thing I did when I woke up and the last thing I did before going to bed. You guys have no idea how much time, care, love and energy I spent into every single one of them.
I never missed an event, I always did my weeklies, including kitty cards and claw machine, senior hunter contest, orbits. Everything. I even spent money on them in order to get all the cards of their designated love interest. This is why my username is "ladsobessesive" because I was obsessed with lads.
Well until they canceled Valko.
I was working when they posted that dreadful message. Working, to have money to spend it on lads. And since the notification was from that very game I read it right away. And I was shaking and feeling so sick that I didn't know how to breathe.
But I won't change the outcome. I won't save those five accounts. This is the price infold will pay.
I kept my main account, and, ironically, Valkos. Those 700+ deepspace tickets and thousand and thousand of resources will patiently wait for his return. Until then his account remains untouched.
I haven't been well since. I know I gave this game too much power but for the first time I thought I had something that no one could take away from me. A safe space that is there for me no matter what. Something worthy of my time and energy.
But just like that it was all gone.
And honestly I don't know if I will ever recover from that, even if they return Valko. My accounts will be gone. My trust will be gone. My love for all these perfectly written and beautiful characters is stained forever. Because they were able to delete something as significant as Valko like it never meant anything.
I don't want to live in a world that is lead by hatred. Where bullies win and love means nothing. And we did so freaking much only to be fucking ignored and not adressed at all.
And I'm so sick of feeling sick whenever I think of my favorite game that used to bring me so much joy and comfort.
So maybe I just let those accounts go and let love and deepspace go. Use my money on silent whispers or what other sht that brings me comfort and is not created by infold or paper games. I invested so much money into this game I feel so betrayed I could cry all over again. Give me back my time. Give me back my money. Close your fcking company. I don't care. You are criminals. And you not adressing us at all is another crime of it's own. How could you expect anything at all from us in the future when this is how you treat the ones that supported you the most. I wish I never started playing in the first place. Hope you're happy now, that Valko is canceled.
honestly, it is rude, 6th li truthers have been waiting for months for valko's release. Spamming hate comments on his promotional videos when infold cleary stated that he's part of a long term development is disrespectful to those of us who were looking forward to his release 🤷
This is free advice from an expensive psychologist.
If you're an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don't make everything a matter of life and death.
I read it somewhere “we romanticised the wrong organ, the stomach is more emotional than the heart” and it feels so true. we feel butterflies in our stomach and when we’re sad we lose our appetite. our stomach gets affected by emotions way more than we realise.
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there are two things I look for in relationships of all kinds:
1. can I be vulnerable with them?
2. can they be vulnerable with me?
in essence: do we feel safe with one another?