idk, we'll see when i see him in person again, which is a whole month from now.
we're going out the whole week, and i'll see if i can try getting something more since im staying over at his house, and he's giving me his bed. which is..so fanfic-like, it's actually funny
so if a guy, whos older by like 8 years..and he takes u out on hikes, movies, coffees, dinner, gym, every other day. and u guys call for hours every week, and plan hangouts in the future...and tried cracking on ur bday, and he's overly freaky when drunk.
do he want me?
i think he obviously does, but idk HOW to make the move to advance on these feelings. i want to be with him, but im not sure bc i am obvi younger than him, and he'd reject me. and as much as id like to get down w him, im not one to crack and go home. i want a relationship.
how do i get T in the shittiest red state
every plannedparenthood here got shutdown
ik how diy works but idk how to get the right dose or the bloodwork or anything like that
MEPS was fun tho met lots of cool and different people there, i hope they are doing well in basics now since we were all supposed to be there together beginning of june
i genuinely think of me getting denied at MEPS from my scars and being trans but i realized why would i literally die for israel thats so stupid lol ima go work at a shitty thrift store
ffffffuuucckkkkk i realized once i move away we cant crack anymore im gonna miss him
hes military too ffffffuuucckkkk im gonna only see him once every few months