i did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. i did not like to be touched because i craved it too much. i wanted to be held very tight so i did not break.
@SongNSunRise itโsโฆ taking a some getting used to, Iโll admit. you and I are quite opposite, but I find myself preferring your company to many others.
best not tell anyone I said thatโ understood?
@SongNSunRise ( how can she? how is she supposed to when he looks at her like this? )
If I allow it, would you think any less of me?
( the way she thinks so much of him, in response )
@SongNSunRise ( why does her stomach drop like this? why does her hand feel so fragile..? )
youโre terribleโฆ terrible, terrible.
( a deep sigh, one that fills her lungs and surrounds her )
but I donโt want to stay away.
@SongNSunRise perfect.. donโt call me that.
( she frowns for a moment, eyes averting as much as they can, only to be drawn back to him )
canโt you see this doesnโtโฆ this doesnโt feel right to me. I donโt deserve that kind of tenderness, Apollo.
@SongNSunRise ( another blank look , as if processing )
I donโt โฆ but *why*?
( she knows heโs just as lost, but she canโt find it in herself to tell him sheโs just as .. confused. just as surprised )
when, exactly?