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and i believe that, and it sounds absolutely amazing, but โฆ you donโt know what will happen after lolla, baby. this is huge for the band, so just โฆ donโt make promises you arenโt sure you can keep .
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You don't have to be insecure , I promise . You're all I see , all I want .
After Lolla , we're going on a trip . Wherever you want to go , we're going and it will be just the two of us .
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i think you just showed it enough to make up for everything just now, so โฆ it means a lot to me. because i want us, too.
i canโt really imagine a reality without you, at this point. and i guess thatโs scaring me, which leads to me feeling insecure .
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I want us more than anything .
When I saw you holding baby Ash ,
I knew for certain that what we have is something different than what I've had before . It's way too early to say it out loud , but my heart knows .
And it sucks I don't show it enough .
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i mean โฆ itโs okay, really .
if anything, i understand how important the band is and i will always wholeheartedly support you. but i also need to know this, ๐ถ๐ด, is what you really want .
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You're not suffocating me , not at all .
I just need to learn that my girl at home is just as important as the band .
I haven't had a serious relationship in a while now , I went back to old habits . I'm really sorry , baby .
I'm sorry I made you feel that way .
The boys and I have just been very focused on Lollapalooza . It's our first real performance as a band . . .
It's not an excuse , actually .
I really am sorry .