Is caught off guard by how far they've come, but still doesn't know what to do with their life from here because they never expected to make it to this point
Has gotten skilled at hiding behind a mask of "I'm fine," while quietly hoping someone notices how hard they're actually working just to hold it together
Reaches for suicidal thoughts as a default response to any. problem, big or small, not because they plan to act on it, but because that's been their default response for so long