When life around me falls apart, Azuki is there. When i feel at my lowest, Azuki has been there.
There's no other greater family i could've asked for...I love you all β€οΈ
For the past 5 weeks, I feel like I have been being tested by the universe.
It started with one phone call.... The cancer came back. A couple of years of thinking that we were in the good destroyed in one phone call. Aggressive, unrelenting. We spend as much time as we could together. We go over every last little thing in our lives. Good, bad, things we wish we would have done, things we are absolutely grateful to have. It was never the best growing up, but you tried it as best as you could with what you had. Anything that we needed? You got at the expense of yourself. And we only learned this in our adult life. When one of your kids dipped into massive addiction, you stepped in to try to help. You took custody of their 2 kids, one of which is mentally and physically disabled. You stepped up again and went beyond being Grandma and went back to being mama. No thought in the decision.
Now, with you gone I will be stepping into that position.
For the last couple of weeks, I have been in and out of court trying to ensure that these 2 children are not forgotten about or sent back to unsafe living conditions. The road will be long and it will be hard...but I will be there for you, no matter what. I took a new job on Mining sites working on those massive building size trucks. Do I want to break my body again, no. But is it a way to ensure we all have enough to survive, yes. There is nothing I will not do for my family.
To those who have been in my DMs, I will be reading through those shortly. To those who are in specialized works with me(commissions), know that those are still being done and updates will be coming within this week. As soon as everything started hitting the fan. I stepped away from all social medias and other distractions. As I have said, I will do anything for my family, even if that's setting aside my own joys and wants in order to accomplish it. I am incredibly sorry for not at least sending a message, you know who you are, but this complete shit storm of a situation required my complete attention. This will take alot of work, but I'm much more leveled now. One day at a time. β€οΈ
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