ADHD can seem fun and quirky until you’re too ashamed to reconnect with people because you haven’t had the mental space to reply for 5 weeks, and now the guilt and fear of being judged is too much.
This is an apology to my mom for all the times she came home from a long day of work and my unemployed teenage self had the audacity not to have done the simple tasks she asked of me. I get it now.
Depression is sleeping through the day in a dark room. Depression is ignoring calls & text from family & friends. depression is feeling lonely, but not wanting company. depression is a disease. It’s called the silent killer for a reason. If you’re still here today, I love you.
Object permanence issues in ADHD aren't just about losing your keys; it’s about 'Social Object Permanence.' I can love you with my entire soul, but if you aren’t in my immediate line of sight or haven’t texted me in 48 hours, my brain effectively decides you have ceased to exist in this dimension. It’s not that I don’t care; it’s that my internal 'check-in' notification is permanently disabled. I’m not ghosting you; I’m just waiting for my brain to remember that people exist outside of the room I’m currently in
I reconnect with people easily even after years of not talking because no friendship of mine is truly severed unless otherwise stated and there will always be a place in my life for everyone I once met
You don’t notice it all at once with chronic illness.
You notice it the first time something ordinary feels unusually hard.
Carrying laundry up the stairs.
Standing long enough to cook dinner.
Running a quick errand without thinking twice.
Tasks that once required no thought can now drain you completely.
Watching your body struggle with what used to be easy is harder than most people realize.
want to send an apology to everyone i’ve met & anyone who has ever cared ab me. sorry im like this i dont mean to be but i’ve been trying very hard to stay. sorry for being difficult sorry i haven’t reached out in a while sorry for being distant. i hope i can find u again one day
When I’m going through things. I do not like talking to people on a daily basis . That's how I've always been because i easily become overwhelmed and overstimulated. 9/10 I'm the only person that can save me, so i like to isolate myself until I'm back to me. Y'all be expecting everybody to handle life circumstances the way y’all do and that's not right, my misery doesn't love company. I'll rather isolate myself until I get it together.