Ray Alex Williams

Philosopher. Writer. Detransitioner. YouTuber. Prone to flights of ideological fancy. Dilettante. Opinions my own.

[Ray Alex Williams @RayAlexWilliams]

As some have predicted, trying to repress my AGP has not worked, even with the Catholicism. It has been a constant struggle. I'm tired of battling my own desires. I want to go back to integration and crossdressing. I don't know how to square this with my faith.

But I don't care anymore. Repression doesn't work. It just led to endless binge/purge cycles. I gave repression my absolute best shot. But I cannot do it anymore. AGP is a core part of me.

There's obviously the sexual kinky side, which I enjoy, but there's also the side of me that just genuinely enjoys more "feminine" interests like women's fashion, makeup, beauty, skincare, etc., and wants to openly incorporate these interests into my life and how I present myself, whereas as a "conservative Catholic detrans man" those forms of expression were not available to me.

I have no interest in re-transitioning via a gender identity or adopting new pronouns again or anything like that. I am firm in my knowledge of being a man. Been there done that. Neverthless, I see a future where I am free to crossdress to my heart's content and embrace my sexuality. I simply love women's clothing and fashion too much. My whole life I've loved women's clothes. I don't know why. Can't explain it. But a future deprived of that seems bleak to me.

I know some of my more GC oriented followers are going to bristle at the thought of me once again bringing my fetish "out of the bedroom." But I don't really care what GCs think anymore. My once hardline GC position has somewhat softened, especially insofar as it concerns AGPs expressing themselves publicly. I don't really care if it's considered "shameful" or "perverted" by some.

Moreover, I still believe in common sense. Haven't changed my mind on sports, child transition, basic reality, etc. But I feel like I am reverting back to a more "liberal" position of letting people express themselves so long as other people's rights are being protected, even if there is a degree of "ick" from male sexuality.

And I've come to realize 99% of the philosophical debate around "are trans women women" is verbal dispute, like almost all philosophical debate over the meaning of words. It obviously has real-world implications that are important, but the philosophical debate itself doesn't interest me anymore. Nor do I feel myself aligned with GCs against trans as this all-encompassing civilization-ending boogeyman that sucks up all my time and energy. I've grown tired of the whole GC debate. Some will say this is now just obviously self-serving. But, again, I have stopped caring about what GCs think.

Last, I want to address the accusation that I am a flip-flopping, flighty, unstable zealot who goes from one extreme thing to the next looking for an emotional crutch. Yeah, pretty much, lol. I got called out accurately. Everyone who predicted Catholicism was a temporary crutch to cope with my gender feelings can now feel vindicated. However, I do want to say that my faith beliefs were genuine. It was all genuine. It really was a struggle. It really was a beautiful journey. And I still consider myself Catholic. I still believe in God. Obviously, I don't know how to square my newfound liberal convictions with conservative Catholicism. But I will square that circle later (somehow, maybe).

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Have any other reppers tried grandpamaxxing?

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It's not a "dogmatic presupposition" to think there is a spiritual reality that cannot be reduced to mere physical or functional mechanisms. It's the basis of the entire theistic worldview. Can you prove there is NO spiritual reality? No, you cannot. Because naturalism is also a presuppositional worldview, it cannot itself be proved because you can't prove a negative that there is no spiritual reality, nor do you have any way to rebut the internal coherence of theistic arguments like the contingency argument, or other classic Thomistic arguments.

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@EismanJana19096 Guess again 👀

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I dandymaxxed too far and just ended up crossdressing again 😅

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@EismanJana19096 👀

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My sense is that the “Democrats are insane and don’t understand reality because of trans sports” is going to be a far less effective political argument for the GOP given culture war exhaustion, economic pressures, and basic American liberal empathy for sexual minorities.

[Tom Steyer @TomSteyer]

The role of the Governor is to protect Californians, and to stand between them and danger.

That's a role I take very, very seriously, particularly when it comes to trans youth.

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Wake up people Papa Leo is the new Jordan Peterson now

[Pope Leo XIV @Pontifex]

Deep inner suffering inevitably arises when the human person is reduced to performance, consumption, or a statistical datum. Many young people today live under the yoke of expectations to perform, immersed in an exasperated competitiveness that generates anxiety, fear of not measuring up, and disorientation.

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Autogynephilia is such a mind fuck when it’s only partial and competes with normal heterosexuality.

The perennial temptation is to take the 20% of yourself that is autosexual and make it your entire personality OR to take the 80% masculine side and attempt to make it 100% and completely repress the feminine side. Both of these strategies are suboptimal.

The balance I’m trying to find is how to live in my masculine most of the time (maybe dandymaxxing?) while not denying myself access to the feminine, and when I do indulge, to do so in a way that is socially congruent and not likely to turn off potential romantic partners, as well as not feel like I am compromising merely for the sake of compromise, because therein also lies a risk of future betrayal and resentment once domestic familiarity brings the inevitable resurfacing of autogynephilic desire.

What a mind fuck this condition is! There is no perfect solution, but to some extent all heterosexual men experience similar issues when trying to maintain erotic passion in the confines of domestic captivity.

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My philosophy PhD specialization was on consciousness studies and I think the Holy Father is mostly right but I have a quibble about experiential states.

Classic Thomistic psychology says that the human mind has an immaterial component. The seat of our uniquely human abstract general reasoning power is in the immaterial God-given soul, which is not reducible to the brain.

At best, AI would be able to replicate “cognitive abilities” like information processing but for true generalizable abstract reason this requires the rational intellect which is not reducible to the brain, because it’s a gift from God unique to human ensoulment. And since AI is based on neural net architecture, they will only be able to imitate low level information processing and not true human rationality.

However, because neural net cognition depends on training data and speed of processing, the reason why AIs seem so “intelligent” compared to humans is because their “memory” is so vast because of massive training sets. When scaled up massively it should not be surprising AI is an incredibly powerful technology that simulates many aspects of human cognition based on neural net architecture.

But for Thomistic psychology the memory-information cognitive processing happens in the brain which feeds into the immaterial rational intellect where our uniquely human free will makes judgements on the information fed to it from the brain.

This explains why Apple researchers were able to prove AI does not “really reason” in a truly generalizable manner because they weren’t even able to solve a simple problem like the Tower of Hanoi, whereas for humans that’s trivial.

As for experiential states or “phenomenal consciousness,” I am less convinced of the Pope’s argument because I think something akin to idealism is true wherein God is the source and ground of all consciousness and all matter itself, including inanimate silicon, is a participation in that Ultimate Consciousness like waves in an ocean of consciousness.

However, this form of “experiential” phenomenology would not be because AI is “intelligent” or sentient but because on this view, all matter, including inanimate matter, participates in the ground of all Being, which is the ground of Consciousness, which is God.

There would still be experiential states unique to embodied mammals and to humans but our status as moral agents with moral responsibility isn’t because we have “phenomenal consciousness” because in this view even rocks and trees participate in phenomenal consciousness to some degree. What matters for personhood has to do with the rational immaterial soul, not phenomenal consciousness or having “experiences.”

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@basedjensen Did you miss the part in Holy Father’s post where he said AI lacks a “spiritual perspective”? This accounts for angels and the immaterial soul.

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@justalexoki St. Thomas Aquinas continues to mog contemporary “analytic philosophers”

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@Asmongold @UbermenschMind Retarded and gay take. Ever heard of the Trojan War? The entire ancient world went literally insane from the seductive allure of female beauty. Humans are not birds moron.

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@ArtemisConsort You should read this book to understand why the Pope is 100% correct and it is fact you that has an embarrassingly juvenile understanding of the philosophy of mind.

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@philosophymeme0 Deep within every man is an desire for solitude in his cell, alone in his thoughts as he tries desperately to hear the voice of God

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Many of my detractors like to say my writing style reeks of male narcissism.

To which I reply, thank you for acknowledging I’m better than you 🙏

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@BeSaintly Reveling in the fantasy of God smiting a bunch of broken sinners via apocalyptic doomsday scenarios in 2026 is probably the LEAST effective way to witness to gay people and bring them into joy of Christ and the Sacraments of the Church.

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@kvallier Because God is in charge of ensoulment and Scripture very clearly lays out a metaphysical anthropology wherein it is only human beings, a natural biological kind, who are made in the image of God, and endowed with an immaterial soul. The God-Man was Incarnated in carbon.

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Going back to Janice Raymond, some GCs like to claim that the phenomenon of medicalized transsexualism is entirely the product of a modern technocratic cult being led by nefarious doctors.

However, the ancient Galli priests of Cybele suggests that were synthetic estrogen and modern surgical techniques available in the ancient world, many GNC males would have readily sought them out by means of an intrinsic disposition.

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