@lizziezilla You have my condolences for your loss. I hope that you and yours will recover and endure. Just please go lighter on yourself.
And good luck. There will be good to come. I just hope a stranger's words can offer some kindness.
@lizziezilla Taking your time to yourself to reflect is a good idea. Time can heal some wounds here, but don't cut all things off. You need not punish yourself, but just reflect.
You are doing your best. As any of us can. Try not to let the words of detractors hit you in the heart.
@lizziezilla Given everything that has been happening all at once in your life, you can hardly be blamed for how you feel right now. It's entirely normal. You've been through a lot in life, and it's hard to deal with the wild mess of a time we live in.