Ben Solo-Force Ghost

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[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

Failure and Rage- Introductory Solo

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[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *Kylo Ren, Master of the Knights of Ren, actually chuckled* Not unless you're planning a coup...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

**Starter for @ScavengerJedi Begins**

>The Force. He felt it flow around him, through him. Felt it bridge the gap of distance and vacuum, spam across worlds and bring what he wanted sharper into focus...
He sat in the chamber, cross-legged, his cloak gone but still enshrouded >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He looked at her, slightly surprised* You're starting to sound like one of the old generals from the Empire...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He nodded, thinking* Especially when he doesn't have to get blood on his hands.
But...if it's the only way, then I'll do it. In some ways, it would be much simpler. Then as head of the order I could declare a truce. It might be best that way- I'm the Supreme Leader now...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi out of command. We might have to kill him- I cannot see him signing an armistice willingly, no matter if I ordered it or not.

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *That was going to be near impossible, with Hux in command. His fanaticism went beyond rational thought at times, even if Kylo was capable of such fury, Hux's single-mindedness drove him mad at times.* We'd have to convince Hux first- and if not..then he would have to be taken >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He sat back on his haunches, her grin infectious, a glimmer of hope dared show itself in his heart* We'd never need anything...only learn from each other, what we wanted to learn... no light, no dark, just the Force...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He nodded, a slight smirk coming to his face* Somewhere not metal, or black. Somewhere with green hills, and forests..water, lots of water...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi knew...that night on Starkiller- that you would change me. My life. I just didn't know how. At first all I wanted was to...to use you. A means to an end. But later I realized it was something far deeper. I just didn't understand it- until Snoke Force-connected us.

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi If you..if you could forgive me..in time. Yes. *He wasn't certain she could, not completely. But if he had half of what he hoped for, he could live at peace with himself. He could shrug off the darkness, let something like his former self back in...*
Yes, it is what I want. I >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi No..I know that. We would have to make sure the war ended. But...afterwards... We could go wherever we wished, like you said. We could be happy...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi different future that was expected of him. A future with peace as the goal, not power. So much of his teachings was for power, to wield it, dominate. But in his heart, he saw that it could be different for him, now that Snoke was dead.*

If..If I left...would you come with me?

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He saw the truth in her words, but it also made him feel something else, fear. If he gave everything up...walked away from the First Order, he would be marked a traitor. Ben looked past his fear, into the unknown, and saw one thing that gave him hope- The possibility of a far >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi For so long...all I wanted was power. The secrets of the Sith, and power. But- I- *He stopped a moment, as if he was actually afraid of voicing a thought* I don't want you to..hate me. Kylo is still- ahhh, gods, part of me. Ben..I thought he was dead for so long...I hated him...

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *He looked at her, his eyes red, brimming with fought back emotion-* I don't want this power- I never did. But...How can you want to be near me? After what I've done...I've- killed so many people...how can you not hate me?

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi and she ran home. She didn't say anything, she just ran. I climbed down, afraid I did something wrong..and by the time I got home, they were waiting for me. Mother, father, my uncle..looking at me. And I knew something had changed. They sent me away, with my uncle, the next day.

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi >Mattered<. I was ten seasons. I remember...playing with Mari- we were climbing a rock wall to get to some fruit from a tree, and she fell. I raised out a hand to grab her but missed- except she didn't fall anymore. She just..stayed, in mid-air..looking at me. I let her down, >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi enormity of what she had said. He trembled a little, and for the first time since he was a child, he wanted to hide. He pulled the cloak around him, his head bowed low, staring with pained eyes at the dirt underneath him.* No..No I-
*He stopped speaking, his inadequacies bared.*

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *There it was- in the cold light of logic. He didn't want to believe it- couldn't. It was too much. But the anger drained from him like water poured from a glass. He just stood there, feeling- everything. Humiliated, defeated, bitter.
Kylo dropped to his knees, sunk by the >

[Ben Solo-Force Ghost @RedeemingGhost]

@ScavengerJedi *Suddenly he slammed a fist into the side of the ship, infuriated* Why?? Why should I be afraid? Why should I be sorry for being what they made me? Tell me WHY! You know nothing of what they did- only what they wanted to tell you!