TTC for years. Finally got pregnant with my son Joey๐.He was very poorly๐๐ผ. Ex left, was TTC๐on my own. 5failed IVF, 6th worked๐ฉโ๐งโ๐ฆTalk BabyLoss & TFMR.
This account is not my personal account although it is personal. I hope to try & help in some tiny way to break the silence around baby loss, TFMR (the taboo within the taboo) & also fertility struggles. If it helps one person feel they're not alone I'm happy.(It also helps me)๐
Sorry if my post was insensitive to those going through IVF or baby loss. I get it, I had to let go of my son after years of TTC (ex then left as I was grieving). Have also done 10 rounds of IVF meds on own. ๐& IVF is hard! I hope my post gave hope that there is a chance & a ๐.
My rainbow babies 1st Christmas๐๐ ๐ผ. The twins were my early Christmas gift after 10 rounds of IVF meds & 6 transfers on own. Waiting for my bauble with their names & my missed Joey's ๐ผ๐ on & this frame for my parents. Hope it arrives & they like it. Will get my own frame soon.
My rainbow babies 1st Christmas๐๐ ๐ผ. The twins were my early Christmas gift after 10 rounds of IVF meds & 6 transfers on own. Waiting for my bauble with their names & my missed Joey's ๐ผ๐ on & this frame for my parents. Hope it arrives & they like it. Will get my own frame soon.
7 week scan today following 6th IVF. Had a huge melt down on way & crying while scanning as so so anxious. I'm doing this alone so nurse kindly came in with me to hold my hand. 2 little heartbeats. A double rainbow! ๐๐ค๐
Today was the big test day. Nearly dropped the cup of wee when I saw 2 lines pop up straight away. Did another 1 & said pregnant! We have a long way to go but for today this is great news! Round 6 (well 10) of IVF worked! Can't believe it.๐ค๐๐งซ๐๐ฅฐ #IVF#DoingItAlone#Positive
To anyone who may have found my news difficult to read I'm so sorry AND I get it. I find hearing pregnacy & baby news so very difficult after losing Joey. I understand & I'm sorry. I shared as some know I have been trying for my rainbow baby for a long time. Sending you big hugs.
Would it be wrong or inappropriate to start a go fund me for round 6 #IVF in hope for my ๐baby? After many tests, losing my son, 3rounds abandoned, 1test round & 5 failed I'm facing another huge loan I can't afford. All I want is to be a mum who gets to bring their baby home. ๐
I just want to bring my baby home & be a Mum who gets to love & look after my children. I've spent years looking after other people's & watching the warm embraces at the school gate. Why can't I have my turn? ๐ญ๐ Now to get a massive loan (which I can't afford) to try again.๐ญ๐
๐ญ๐ Years of trying, 1 loved baby lost, 18 #IVF eggs collected, 14 IVF embabies conceived & made, 4 were not allowed to be frozen, 3 IVF attempts abandoned, 5 rounds went ahead with 10 embabies transfered, 10 embabies didn't make it. Today it failed again. Life is s**t!!! ๐๐ญ๐
Round 4 IVF failed. ๐โ๐โ๐ญ My embabies didn't make it. I'm heartbroken. Was stupid enough to actually think it had worked this time. ๐ญ๐๐๐ญ
Thank you Jane (This Morning) & @emmerdale for trying to explain this. I'm not sure I'll be able to watch it but am glad it's going to be handled sensitively. None of us who made the decision lightly. It's heartbreaking to end a much wanted pregnacy. @poissonmerlot@ARCantenatal