And I feel somewhat content of not forming any at all and just keep the wings as they are. But I feel like I’m not doing enough for myself to be Not abandoned by everyone because I just want to feel wanted by someone.
I think my fear was that it was either living life without a fix structure and fear of forming a relationship then being forgotten. I don’t know if the first one has some kind of psychology behind it.
but I guess the second one was that I’m afraid that if I form some of connection that I would be afraid of being forgotten about and be abandoned by everyone I know irl or in the internet.