@plac_held I know the feeling friend
When it feels like despite having history in a place you feel more and more like a stranger or unwelcome there
What I can completely say tho it that you've got people who think about you, who love your company, and thats something beautiful
@plac_holder Stare into the uncaring void, let it annihilate you down to the core of your soul, and from the chaos, mold your existence back up like clay, a new entity.
[You could also try some choral stuff, I'm literally always weak for Choruses]
@plac_holder If it worked before it could work again, but it doesn't have to just be OSTs, Playing video games, reading books, even these can help if you let them