Your wife's opinion should hold the most weight in your life. Men are the most happy when they are productive and women are the most productive when they are happy.
Dear Self
Delete the "Thread" not just texts, Dms and call logs but people, places and things tied to toxic vibes. Not everyone that crosses your line is meant to be knitted with.
We don't love gradual progression we like glimpses of potential. Which potentially becomes a problem. If my commitment to you is based off how I feel, when you no longer stimulate that feeling it's easier to disconnect