Father’s Day is coming up and I feel all weird about it cause even though I cut ties with him years ago this is the first year he isn’t even alive anymore so idk it feels all different now
I be seeing people I use to fw ghost me meanwhile they hangout with people who got multiple allegations about them at a certain point I stopped being mad at and realized they're just fucking bums and it's beneath me to miss them as friends
Had a dream last night that subhuman piece of shit was back in my life again and woke up with a phantom pain in my chest and a reminded that I can’t trust anyone ever and I hate it
I hate not knowing if somebody fucks with me or not and wanting to reach out or try and hang more cause I think they seem cool but idk if they hate me or what this is so dumb socializing should be easier
You ever like judge your own kink? Like yo DO find it hot in your brain and dick but you also are like "the fact that you like this is dumb you're dumb for being into this" to yourself?
Im sick to fuckin death of people man I’m getting real misanthrope coded lately I fear holy fuuuuuuck is it so hard to just shut up and stop being so damn miserable and ruining the world I’m trying to live in
Lowkey highkey it bums me out knowing some people have just given up on me. Like friends I made starting out as a streamer who grew more and faster than I did and I guess they just don’t see a reason to keep interacting with me anymore cause I’m not good enough or whatever
I don’t understand it anymore. WHY are people so hyberbolic and vitriolic? Complaining non stop about such insignificant shit. All over fucking video games or movies how do you let that dictate your life and mood so strongly? Don’t you feel silly?
I used to think I had a pretty tough skin for the never ending geyser of negativity that is the internet but lately… idk man it’s just getting to me everyone is SO fucking miserable and whiny. Some of it over valid reasons but so much of it over the most what EVER things
Yo I fuckin love my therapist and he's been helping deal with some serious demons. But I NEED him to stop suggesting I just try dating like that will fix all my issues I do not CARE about that right now in life why does every conversation we have circle back to that???????