I could never be Subaru, at this point i'd be using return by death to impregnate them over and over again so their bodies would remember the feeling even when i died and they'd be confused as to why they get so horny after just standing in front of me.
“Please stop! You are hurting him!”
“No, he needs to learn how to play beat saber…”
“Let him go! I can’t giga quote without him!”
“He will never fly again… I’m going to make him play doom next”