i’m glad i’ve become aware of the toxic and unhealthy traits in my character and am actively working to change them, instead of hiding behind “that’s just the way i am.”
I love a man that's into me. Like he can't keep his hands off me, can't wait to talk to me, wants to take me places, buy me gifts, kiss on me, cuddle, plan dates, and do crazy, fun spontaneous stuff
Me telling my dad why he is calling me at 3am Australian time only for him to answer “wewe ni mtoto wangu I’ll call you anytime i feel like it sijui why you even asking me such a stupid question” so cute 🤣🤣
Gosh, Heartbreak is such a dark place to be in. I hate what it does to me. I hate how it slowly unravels me and makes me forget who I am. I get lost in my thoughts, replaying conversations, overanalyzing every detail, wondering what I missed. I hate how it messes with my emotions and my hormones one minute I’m strong, the next I’m crying over memories.
I hate how vulnerable it makes me feel. I start questioning my worth and my judgment. I hate worrying about whether they even feel it the way I do, or if I’m the only one carrying the weight of it.
I hate feeling stuck between letting go and holding on. Stuck between protecting myself and hoping things will somehow change. I hate how I shrink, how I overthink, how I lose my balance just trying to make sense of everything.
It’s exhausting. And I don’t ever want to lose myself like that again.
I honestly need a friend who works in HR and a cop and the fact that i know noone in my age who is in this industry nor anyone who I know has them is weird😅