I cant do this I cant do this I cant live with myself I cant do this I keensobbing but im not allowed to cry truing to hold it in it hirts everything feels so numb Im do tirsd
I feel so lost, everything is slipping out of my control I need to do something but I have no motivation I want to die but I can't so I'm just watching my life slip away from me again
It's upsetting because when mother was in debt and struggling I used my savings as a kid to get food for them,, that money was supposed to be for me when I was 18 to fall back on but ig not