Rou'a Nafea

Per Angusta Ad Augusta... #EDCU

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

أول دقايق في السنة ودي آية اليوم بتاعتي وأنا اعتبرتها رسالة ربانية وحاضر يا رب، هضيفها لل resolutions بتاعة ٢٠٢٠:
{خُذِ ٱلْعَفْوَ وَأْمُرْ بِٱلْعُرْفِ وَأَعْرِضْ عَنِ ٱلْجَٰهِلِينَ}
_سورة الأعراف، آية ١٩٩

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

Because in real life and for 250+ days, Palestinians have been enduring all that and more and screaming it at your screens and somehow, your reactions are wildly different.

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I just finished watching #HouseoftheDragon & checking out responses online. I must say I'm really amazed how everyone suddenly understands war crimes & that beheading a child is horrifying & a mother searching for her baby's body & having to mourn over his remains is unforgivable

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

Etisalat,
Believe me, I am sorry too. However, you don't have to keep telling me... 🙄

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

First time crying with the new mascara that I am in love with. It has a flaw. It burns when you cry 😔

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

I'm 100% stuck & while I'm not happy about it, the outer world is too evil & exhausting for my current fragile self to handle & I've basically lost my skills of managing that shit show.. So, yeah, back into my shell I meekly crawl with no immediate plans of ever coming back out.

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

All of them were said with big smiles & in a partly joking manner.
Doesn't really matter or make it easier to swallow.

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

Direct quotes from today:
"I envy you because you are the only one among us who hasn't felt heartbreak yet."
"The pain you feel/live through (referring to me losing my parents) doesn't compare."
"No, I'm not discussing it anymore. WE want you to get married & give us babies."

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

And the fact that whatever they do or say is coming from a place of love is rarely a factor among all the hurt.

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

Back in the day, my Mum would protect me from the pain they spew at me & what she can't stop, she treats & heals...
Now, I keep trying to protect my siblings & failing consistently.
Now, I usually come back scarred & bloody on the inside with failure pulling my limbs apart..

[Dr. Maya C. Popa @MayaCPopa]

Louise Erdrich:

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

People are envying me the little rest I'm stealing from life in the midst of the grief, anxiety, depression, trauma etc.
And they are forcibly taking it away from me with all their might!

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

It will take me God knows how long to get rid of today's stress & its subsequent evil thoughts & feelings...
And I don't have this luxury right now because I'm being pushed to run around instead of resting & taking care of me

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

Eid Cleaning Thoughts:
Cinderella didn't need the fairy godmother to become a princess for the dress & shoes, those can be bought. She needed magic because one cannot spend all their time cleaning & still have party-worthy nails and/or hands.

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

"Some grief is.. heavier than other grief. Sometimes it moves through you, and sometimes it.. It just gets stuck...
And you carry it."

_George O'Malley ('s soul?)
__Grey's Anatomy (S17E04)

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

If they are right here, I still won't call or see them, but knowing they are here is comforting somehow...??

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I'm in this place in my life where I rarely meet and/or talk to the people I love for ✨️mental health✨️ reasons, but somehow the minute any of them steps out of town, my anxiety & missing them functions go into overdrive...

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@Gehad_hafez93 مش قادرة له والله..

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Not-so-fun fact:
Leaving your Twitter for a long while means that your home timeline sadly becomes a weird mess of unrelatable shit because you grew away from your chosen Following list & now you need to revive & reorganize that to fit your new interests 🙃

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

I need more تفاهة on my Twitter, it is too serious.
And I am no longer seeking seriousness in my life. All my other apps are basically تفاهة مجسدة...

New Task Reminder: Revamp Twitter with more silliness 💫💃

[Rou'a Nafea @RouaNafea]

I just noticed that I did the same thing last year at almost the same time...

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Ew.