Radwan

I despised society before you knew how to spell it.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

Decided to do Jujutsu Kaisen's OP by Eve 2 weeks ago and now I'm just leaving it here because why the fuck not.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

This aged worse than a rotten egg Alhamdulellah. Yalla mesh mohem.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

A gradual handover feels like the right thing but my unstable psyche really wants to see the chaos of completely disappearing from a zillion projects all on the same day and watch a good portion of the scene and everything tiny I tried building burn.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

This past week has really been a blessing. Just cooking, baking and spending time with the only person I wanna be around without a care in the world. Honestly I wish I could just stay at home with Sabreena and the cats more often and forget about work and responsibilities.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

A gradual handover feels like the right thing but my unstable psyche really wants to see the chaos of completely disappearing from a zillion projects all on the same day and watch a good portion of the scene and everything tiny I tried building burn.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

It was a good run. I mean I tried giving it my all but don't think I can take the pressure any longer. Just wanted to satisfy my younger self, I suppose. Sort of a "one last go at it just to prove that I can" kinda thing.
Maybe now I can sleep better & focus on my little family.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

@AhmadTawfiik هلعب مع Paranoid Eyes يوم الخميس اللي جي في Cairo Jazz Club
ويوم ١٤ الشهر اللي جي في الساقية
مع Silk n'Smoke
Would love you to see you in either, bro! 🙏

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

It's a tough life, but I wouldn't trade playing live music night in and night out for anything. Insanely grateful for all the people I had the pleasure of sharing a stage with in the past 2 years.
ماشفوفش كلب فيكم شهر سيبتمبر اللي جي يا أوغاد 🙏

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

Walahy these tiny little wins sometimes make me feel like I might actually be doing something right in my music career.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

So you got all these people playing with 5 string active Bass guitars and everyone seems to be losing it over them.
Enters the recording studio my autistic ass with a passive P Bass that sits beautifully in the mix and almost gets the engineer to tear up just the right amount.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

Work in progress

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

الفترة دي يا إم هاتخلص عليا تماماً يا هطلع منها بأمراض نفسية غير اللي عندي تكفيني ٢٠ سنة قدام. احنا في معاناة غير مفهومة والله، ربنا يفرجها وينجينا.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

مازال عندي امل وعشم في ربنا ان كل خطوة هاتقويني وتعلمني وتفكرني ان الحل الوحيد في الدنيا دي هو الصبر والتوكل طول مانت بتعمل اللي ربنا مقدرك عليه.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

انا تقريبا وصلت لشبه حيطة سد في حياتي العملية سواء في الطب او الموسيقى. مش حاسس ان قادر اتخطى الحيطة دي وماسك فيها كا شماعة بعلق عليها عدم قدرتي على التطور او التقدم في اي حاجة من كتر الارهاق والتعب والقلق. حاسس ان مهمة ذاكرت واتمرنت هفضل في النقطة دي حبة حلوين اوي.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

بس يمكن علشان كنت متخيل ان انا كنت هبقى مرتاح نفسياً اكتر لما اوصل هنا عقلي الباطن مازال متمسك بفكرة ان الفشل الحتمي والتحطيم الذاتي هو الحاجة الوحيدة اللي مش هقدر اتخطاها.
But when have our expectations ever gone according to plan?

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

*Me forgetting all this shit, acting like a total bitch and dissociating the moment I'm offered a 5 figure gig*

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

I'm at a point where I can't handle listening to Pink Floyd lyrics let alone play and sing that shit live. I am so close to screaming like a maniac and running off mid gig.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

Honestly I can't handle 90% of the music I'm playing right now. I seriously need more Tuwa music in my life, or maybe start an Emo Math Rock band purely for self gratification.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

I was supposedly studying aladdin's first three soundtracks from a broadway version for a gig next week and ended up studying and playing the entire broadway on bass and I'm not sure how I feel about it.. or myself...

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

مانا هالقيلها مخرج او اقتل الباند كلها، او اقتل نفسي. ده ايه الليلة المهببة دي.

[Radwan @Rtheunfortunate]

طيب انت جي تلعب اول set في يوم طويل عريض مالوش آخر تحط على اللي رايح واللي جي وتمشي، العبد لله الغلبان اللي طالع يتمرمط في two sets بعدك سيبتله ايه؟ يروح يلعب طيز؟