╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘

⠀⠀ ⠀⠀𝒘𝒐𝒍𝒇-𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓, 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑡𝑖𝑐 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡, 𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐫 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

https://t.co/NezY7s8F3r

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

I do not know. I blame you. or the dogs. too cheerful.

if you would like to. I am not going to force you. it is merely a suggestion.

maybe… maybe we should both try it. a little bit. sometimes. far from Brooklyn.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

( snort . ) teddy the optimist . what have you done with the real teds, eh ?

if it'll ease your mind, i'll look into it . see if there's a ... group, or something, that isn't just some pretentious bullshit . i * guess i can stand leaving the house on occasion .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

no? I just… worry that I am not enough. to occupy you.

I cannot believe I am the optimist here, but they might. but I take your point.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

. . .

i wouldn't say i'm lonely . not anymore .

beyond just us, people won't stay . so what's the point of going out and meeting them ? they'll all leave, or d!e, and then it'll be just us again . back to square one .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

okay, okay. I get it.

but we cannot both be afraid to go outside. and I get extra reasons not to, when my family are on those streets and would kill us both.

you do not… feel lonely? with just me?

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

ugh. all of us, sitting in a little circle, holding hands and talking about our feelings while we drink shitty coffee in some church basement or somethin' ? christ, i think i had a nightmare like that once .

... i dunno, teddy .

i don't like the idea of just … +

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

there are for vets. that is… close enough. probably is not going to be that touchy feely, it will be a testosterone fest. but it is people who have been at war.

that is a simplistic way to describe what we have experienced.

only if you wanted.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

... right . okay .

what kind of ' group ' do you mean, exactly ? some touchy feely support thing ? don't think there's one out there for our kinda experiences.

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

does he think I would have married him if I wasn’t prepared to have his personality around for the rest of our ( very long ) lives?

глупый мальчик

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

no. I am not getting sick of you. you’d know if I was.

I just know that I am not the most talkative. and sometimes I am grumpy with you.

they might help. relate to you.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

a ... group ?

. . . are you getting sick of me.

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

mhm… maybe— can’t believe I’m saying this… you could find like… a group.

wouldn’t be the exact same as us, but… you know

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

i guess . i don't have much to talk about with 20—something year olds whose worst experience in life is not getting into the college they wanted, though, so it was short .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

was that nice?

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

i mean .

i spoke to the barista at the coffee shop down the street a couple days ago .

[༌༙⁎ 𝕼𝐔𝐄 ･𝚂𝙴𝚁𝙰́ .ᐣ @illusionfolle]

https://t.co/LcrMIE8dqv

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

I mean I don’t blame you

but is only talking to me and two dogs… good for you?

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

mhm . . . i guess . i've grown to dislike people .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

no more than me. but yes. you were more sociable than me to begin with.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

are you implying i've turned into a recluse ?

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

. . . right.

I’m not sure I know of the last time you spoke to anyone that was not us.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

he's such a good boy . just like his dad . * 😌

. . . you're right . right . i'd be glad to make it about just us, and nobody else . i'm sorta tired of everybody else .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

okay, dead animal coming through…

mhm, I thought so. does not need to be about your father. or mine. we can make it about us.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

🥺 i'm so proud of him ... he can bring it to me ...

... listen . listen . ignore what i said . i'm happy about this part of the holiday --

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

I think it’s just a dead animal anyway but he was very proud of it.

Oh and I was going to make dinner

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

wait wait wAIT --

let's not be hasty .....

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

I’ll tell Solo not to bring you that present then

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

father's day ... ?

... eh . m'good .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

how fortunate.

yes I want to see. easy but slow please. princess treatment means I get to admire.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

lucky us, they come off real easy.

wanna see ?

( cue a cheeky grin. )

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

impressive.

you’re wearing to many clothes.

[‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍𝖉𝖊𝖆𝖉 ‍ ʷᵒˡᶠ ‍ 𝒘𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠. @waradorned]

( appears in the bathroom - )

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

mhm. I am, and yes I have. you’ll get a thank you, don’t worry.

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

good boy.

bring grapes. I want you to feed me them .

[╱ 𝖋𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝖌 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝖍𝐞 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊𝖘 @SOLITARlUS]

uh huh. okay. just be mad quieter or take it out in better ways.

mhm. thought you’d say that.

after* you’ve fed the pups.