Beetle

Sweet Mamma (Papa's getting mad)

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

All the time I spend studying how to be normal doesn’t pay off

Being autistic is a prison

I wish I never got the diagnosis and just thought i was a freak and could fix it

But I can’t fix being autistic

And I lost my chance to have friends from uni

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

4am sad tweet yadda yada whatever

Why the fuck is everyone posting memories of a show I was just in and I’m in fucking none of them and somehow conveniently cut out of a full cast photo

What am I genuinely doing wrong

Am I too autistic to have friends irl

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

There’s this tradition where we wrote nice things on a3 sheets for everyone in the cast. I didn’t even get one side full and yeah people wrote nice stuff but it’s also a lot of

“Slay diva”
And it’s just Wow. Nobody really knew me huh? And I don’t know how I could have let them

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

I can’t explain to you the level at which I am genuinely devastated by the fake out silksong announcement at summer games fest. Hollow knight is one of my biggest special interests and to have it genuinely shit on in front of so many people and denied time for dead pool vr??

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

To be clear I don’t even dislike the part I got. I like it. It’s fun. It’s just not the one I went for and for some reason that has destroyed me.

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

I tbijnk mental health is important andi want to advocate for it. I want to tell the truth of it but I’m also too much of a coward to let anyone see the worst side of myself

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

I want to be a good person. I really do. But it feels like I’m not meant to be.

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

I want to be better. I want to be mentally sound. But it just isn’t happening

[Beetle @SSageKnight]

@joobyor They had better