0YASUMII (venttwt)

hai :3 i'm autism. 21 |

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i feel like such a baby

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

why is it so hard just to talk to me

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i want to feel like people actually care about what i tell them

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

thinking of shutting myself away for weeks and not interacting with anyone

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

living in horror and dreaming about horror when do i get a break

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i want to be wanted

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

urghhhghghhhjhghhhh

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

how are you going to respond to my message saying if i want to come there i should and make it seem like it’s what you want then turn around and say we aren’t close anymore and barely talk to me

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i can’t do this shit anymore

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i used to do this just to feel wanted i didn’t care if people were just using me i just needed to feel like someone wanted me

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i hate that i have to question everything because i feel likle everyone is hiding something from me

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

I CANT DO THIS BRO LIKE I CANTTTTTTT

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i might kill myself!

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

just saw this and instantly started sobbing i need help

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i love being so emotional everyday to the point where i randomly need to cry this is so fun

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i just want a day where nothing happens please i need a break so bad

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i dont know what to do anymore

[Tenshi ➡️ twitch.tv/tenshi @TenshiTTV]

I feel like the “trend” of people saying they are autistic because they’re quirky severely damages actually autistic people

I am diagnosed autistic, I went to a school for autistic children because i couldn’t cope in a normal school, I have suffered my whole life.

I do NOT understand tone, I do NOT handle social situations correctly, I struggle with friendships and relationships, I have horrible sensory processing, I cannot handle change and the only time I’m not masking is when I’m on stream. (Which is why I love streaming so much)

I’m so sick of this shit, I’m so sick of the “I’m so autistic hahaha!” NO, YOU ARENT. then when I don’t understand something or do something “bad” BECAUSE OF MY AUTISM nobody takes it seriously and I’m just “stupid”

It’s a disability. I have a developmental disability. I am disabled and feel no shame in this.

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

all of dis is me
https://t.co/xoA7KVRj6s

[0YASUMII (venttwt) @ST4RBRIGH7]

i’m so SAD