Just had to remove 30+ bot accounts from following me. Not sure what the state of this platform is... π€·ββοΈ
Makes me trust everything on here even less than I already did.
I've always believed that there is a good future for me, one that I just have to make it to. At my worst it always felt far off, but even then I had a clear understanding in my heart that all my struggles would lead to good. While it feels muddier now, that belief persists.
Honestly, 2023 has been a pretty dark year for me mentally. Every moment that I'm alone and not distracting my mind, I'm haunted by thoughts and feelings that I've grown quite tired of. I'm trying to move forward in life, but my motivation and energy quickly dissipate.
I recall now just how much I used to hate waiting for time, not knowing how or when I would recover. I can manage better these days with a little more resilience, but I would really like to do more than just manage. While severely damaged, my hope remains - optimist that I am.