death has become me

decidedly feral
gots a personal vendetta against the Abuser™️
poet, writer, harbinger of ruination
they/them

[death has become me @SadhbhRGraham]

They find me in a bathroom, and I
Can’t really understand when they say “gave”
birth,” because you
ensured that my teachers never taught me all

~"All", by S. Graham, in the style of the Golden Shovel by Terrance Hayes, with lyrics from Mumford & Sons

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@hellodigit hiiiiii your app just crashed and now I can’t see my ~$2500 in savings what tf is up with that I don’t get paid enough to not be panicked about this

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when u write poems about ur mom's abuser and perform them at slams so everybody in ur town knows just how awful he is>>>>>>>>>

[death has become me @SadhbhRGraham]

I am become death
and death has become me
my friend, my shadow, my enemy

~the Watcher, by S. Graham

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me: wears a regular bra
me: ...eugh
me: oh so THIS IS WHAT THEY MEAN WHEN THEY SAY DYSPHORIA

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update: we have had two hearings so far with The Crime Committer, and they are both undeniably fucked and full of a disturbing amount of hatred towards yours truly. he was ranting and raving on about some shit involving a bank and i nearly took a bow but i was on webex lmao

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Quick I need someone who deeply appreciates the Silmarillion to look at something

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cw: in my feels about grief n death
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we just became those people who are throwing together a micro wedding for my sister because my mother won't be alive this time next year

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cw: serious illness
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thank you, reddit, for telling me that my post in r/hospice about my dying mother has ten upvotes. makes me feel sooooooooooo much better

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like what do you MEAN that normal people can't do that????????? #EhlersDanlosSyndrome

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me to my PCP: yeah i've always been hyperflexible, and it runs in my family; I didn't walk until I was almost 2 and my pediatrician diagnosed me with hypermobility syndrome
my PCP, after tugging on my skin and watching me be crazy flexible w/ no warmup: yeah you have EDS

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then i proceeded to get high at my bestie's place and was absolutely flabbergasted that her skin didn't stretch away from her joints

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@Kiraofthewind1 *in italics* no!!!!!!

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as an ace/aro, i enjoy it deeply when Marcus Mumford sings mournfully about lost loves and broken relationships. why? dunno. funky white boy ??

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do not compare some of the beautiful fics i read on wattpad to that weird lady. quantity does not equal quality and early wattpad was a GLORIOUS place

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i saw a tiktok a few ays ago that said that people who like colleen hoover never were on wattpad and i have never read a truer statement

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@HarmonicAuthor @AuthorADJ Alfred. Al. Friend. Homie. Why did you make me read this with my own two eyes!!?? 😂😂😂😂

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you know when you have that realization that things aren't going to get better, that this is the new normal and the new normal is watching my mother decline at light speed?
...yeah

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guess who's going to meet with LAWYERS on SUNDAY because we're steadily building the Case ™️ against Trash Can Crime Man!!!!!!!

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sticking to one POV is for cowards. we slip and slide from one to the other like MEN