@maybanotherlife They don't understand how inner homophobia works nor how being raised by a toxic parent can impact how you see/present yourself, especially raised by a man reeking toxic masculinity.
Just finished my scale model of the impala that my best friend gifted me for Christmas. It was my first time so there's definitely stuff that I would do differently if I could 🤣 but I'm proud of it. Assembling all the tiny pieces of the engine was so hard but so satisfying!
TW: suicide
This morning I can't stop thinking about my mentor. I lost her a year and a half ago. She k***** herself on her birthday. She was an amazing queer woman researcher with adhd. I saw myself in her everyday. She gave me hope I could have a futur just like her.
Now I see the barn. I know I'm just having a bad day and I'm about to have my period so my brain his down the rabbit hole...again. But I miss my friend and I miss my confort character. They used to give me hope when I couldn't find it on my own.
Anyway, sorry for rambling guys.
And now that she's gone, sometimes it's hard not to think that it's what waiting for me. And the thing is, I haven't been able to watch SPN since the finally cause now I can't even look at dean without seeing the barn scene. I used to think about Dean's happy futur before....
Here’s the youtube link! Everytime I listen to this song I couldn’t help but picture them, so I decided to make this little video https://t.co/amAoB8Rd87