a moment of silence for the moms that never allow themselves to have a break, spa day, or dare spend money on themselves due to the idea that neglecting yourself equals your value as a mom. #MomLife
The estranged feeling of being apart from the last person I would’ve expected doesn’t go away. I did however acquire space in my life that needed to be refreshed and cared for accordingly. Leaving was painful but it would’ve hurt more to keep staying.
I forfeited the endless lavishing tales of the life we’d have together. The moving goalposts, uncredited efforts, being the extra mindset was overwhelming when things were touch and go. I stopped being loyal to myself and lost my own vision.
I granted an astronomical amount of my wellbeing to be deterred — influenced that doing so would prompt a reciprocal reaction. To seek his desire I wilted silently, repetitive dialogue without intention was the bandaid to keep dragging me along.