Sanmi~🎃💤

Sanmi / Nao | any/all | 26 | GER/ENG | Digital Artist 🎨 | Cömms: ❌ | 🔞 no minors 🔞 | icon by S0d4chan | 🏳️‍🌈💕🏳️‍⚧️ | side acc @Tourniquettore

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Hugs~!

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Nothing has changed since 2013. I didn’t have a plan then, aside from killing myself before 20… which didn’t happen… and I still don’t have a plan now.
I’m not being dramatic, there seriously just aren’t any jobs in this world that wouldn’t make me upset to work for > a week.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Looking at job listings is making me suicidal. I thought we were over it,,, but apparently not. Why do all jobs in the world suck?? Seriously. I’m unwilling to compromise cuz everything is terrible.
I don’t want to be miserable whilst being forced to work a job. I hate reality.

[ぬあ @nuuua_25]

#今月描いた絵を晒そう 🩷❤

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

And I’m supposed to do this for 1-3 months…

So far the questions the lady asks me, just make it look like I’ll be shoved in a library. I don’t even read books. The fuck do you expect me to do in a library? Put books back on shelves? Stare at a computer to check inventory??

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Instead of letting me sleep till ~8 and starting the day at my own pace, You’re forced to wake up at like 6:30, when it’s still dark, to spend an hour on getting ready and cuddling the bunnies…
Just to sit around in a room for 4 and a half hours, looking at job descriptions… -

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Y’all really know how to make life depressing.
I can Google jobs at home, cozy in my bed with my bunnies, and a few snacks, but nooo,,, isolation chamber it is. We will attend to you eventually.
Why the hell do I even need to go there if it’s not an actual schooling?
I just sit.

[式界 @shikikai7]

ヌメ後REIくんにおでこを見せてもらう回（ゼ3期）

[式界 @shikikai7]

前髪の影と目力の魅力を再認識しました

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

I‘m just no good at being creative and I hate having to think and pose stuff around.
I really hate the process of making art.
It is no fun.
Nothing is fun.
These job listings irl suck so badly tho… I’d rather draw and suffer at home.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Having to look at jobs is absolute torture. (I‘m exaggerating.)
My head hurts and I hate everything.

They had the audacity to put Comic-Illustrator on the list. As if ya can apply for that where I’m living… ain’t it just self-employment at home?
But even then, I can’t do it.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Tho art also doesn’t really pay,,, not with how I handle my social media presence. This is such an embarrassment. Obviously nobody would pay me to draw… aside from like… 1-5 people from the past ten years… which is horrible for sales.

[vi @vihroco]

#Dottore I love the dottolings very dearly💕💕

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

https://t.co/KkZeqXzgdn
Colored some bases.
Also have a few leftover adoptables available.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

See the thing is, I really hate my art.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Okay no. I hate the texture of my paper.

I’m gonna design adoptables. And I’ll have to do it digitally. I can’t draw complex outfits on paper. Not that I can draw that digitally either… but I think designing stuff is more tangible, than staring at a reference and drawing OCs.

[Sanmi~🎃💤 @Sanmisui]

Honestly, I don’t even know if I can still draw at all.