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Trying to reach a goal through this.

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It's day 1 of the streak again. Things went unexpected. Or things went just like I expected... I'm happy for having the drive to try this again. #noporn

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It feels good to be without porn right now. I think I have managed to change my habits a tiny bit. #noporn

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I was feeling grumpy and tired today. I noticed that I took a few steps on a trail that leads to relapse. Im used to watch porn when I feel like this. I need to figure out some other output for these feelings. Happy for this almost one week streak. #noporn

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I have made progress in doing things that for years had given me some hard times. Hopefully i will see some improvement with this streak too. 5th day is almost over and it's easy. I usually start to have more difficulties after a week without porn. #noporn

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@hustle4better I'll take a closer look at this. I didn't quite understand the "mess-up" part and level up thing.

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Cold shower and writing my thoughts are my tools this time. At least for starters. #noporn

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I have watched porn on a regular basis during almost 10 years of my life. It's hard to think of life without porn influencing me. Now its time to reach for freedom again. #noporn

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@hustle4better To be more present and aware in every moment rather than only gazing to the goal of avoiding porn for a amount of days. Is this what you are meaning?

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I asked my wife what she wanted for a christmas present. She shrugged her shoulders. Afterwards I got an idea: What if tried to quit watching porn for her. That would make us both feel much better. The idea of quitting has been growing upon me lately.

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It's approximately 1 week of #nofap #noporn. Maybe the less you think about it or think about avoiding it, the less it controls your life...

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I'm having a streak, but it's the wrong one.

#nofap #noporn

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This isn't working very well for me now.

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I'm a funny being, I must say. #nofap and #noporn spirit is up again, although my motivation was lost this morning and yesterday. Against one past post I'm also kind of liking the thought of counting days for a streak again. It makes the recovery somehow more concrete.

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I'm frustrated.

It has been falling apart these days. I'd like to think:
"I don't know why this all happened to me. It's impossible succeed."

Except, I kind of know some details that led me to this point, where I lost my streak and spend hours looking for porn. #noporn #nofap

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Day ø

I will propably quit counting days. Now i would be like day 0 #nofap (if understand the definition of it correctly) and propably day 9 #noporn.

I'd like emphasize more on standing my ground in every moment saying no to urges i don't want.

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@ronnie_bryan_ I mean OpenDNS
Afterthought: "porn filter" wasn't a good choice of words here...

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Day 8 continues

I slipped quite a bit today compared to previous days. I was very tired and spent time online to amuse myself and I had thoughts to look for erotic pictures but luckily porn filter blocked my attempts.

#noporn #pornaddiction

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I also fapped today, but without any visual provocation. I was thinking it's better to get a release from the tempting thoughts than follow them.

My goal is to stop using porn and start seeing women as fellow beings rather than sex objects.