I'll probably delete later...
I try to keep the vibes positive on my page and when I stream, but since I go long periods without streaming, I owe you at least some kind of explanation.
I've been in a constant struggle with my mental health for a very long time, it's gotten worse and worse over the years. I find myself being more incapable of dealing with it the more time passes.
It has been difficult to act on helping myself because the last time I did, the doctor basically sent me home and told me to fix my life first.
I tend to self-isolate and back away from any form of social contact because I fear getting hurt or being a bother to others, like people are probably better off without me there.
I can't stand being vulnerable and opening up in front of people, I tend to keep my walls up because it feels like people won't take me seriously when I talk about it, or that people who are struggling with something similar tend to view my content as a form of escape and I don't want to bring that back to them.
but man does it suck to be alive
✨FULL OFFKAI CATALOG✨
i'll be at table #10 in the yabai market only! many new additions to my lineup that i've worked hard on since last year. do you see your oshi? 🧐
dakis, 3d mousepads, prints
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