Self Harm's Doll

19.Ugly.Depressed.Suicidal.Cutter.Broken.Trying to find a way out of this hell...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I think I may have social anxiety and it ruins everything for me....

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I'm lost... I'm alone... My mind is taking over.... I'm fighting.... I'm fighting everyday... but I'm so tired...tired of trying....of hurting....of breathing...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I'm so close to cutting again fuck....

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

okay that just broke me...I'm back in this hole again

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

shit guys I gained 4kg... https://t.co/fRRnGv7oJg

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

On that note you should know that my sister is 30 y.o. and earning her own money while I'm 19 and still in school not earning anything...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

So I said I was fine and we left and now I feel like I am not worth the food I am eating I'm just not worth it...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

...myself some food (for like 7€) and in that moment I saw her doubting if I was worth the money... she didn't want to give me the money...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

She had absolutely no problem spending 12€ on her... later I got hungry too (haven't eaten anything for 9h) and I asked if I could get...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

Okay so today I was forced to go out with my mum and my sister and we went to a market... So my mum bought some food for my sister and...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

... out with "friends" since new years eve... all I wanna do is die... I have like no reason to keep going anymore 😔

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I spent all my weekends at home because no one wants to go out with me... and if someone does life always gets in the way.. haven't been...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

...Idol, the woman who saved my life a 1000 times but I won't be able to take it bc life got in the way and I have no one to go with...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I missed amazing opportunities and I won't be able to dance in the show I've been waiting for a whole year... I have the chance to meet my..

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

And I understand why nobody likes me... I'm fat, ugly & annoying...school stresses me out...My dreams are crushed...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

Can't go out with friends.... god I don't even have any... no boy was ever interested in me.. didn't even have my first kiss... I'm 19

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I fucking hate my life... I hurt my foot and I am in pain since december... I can't dance, can't go out swimming or doing anything else...

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

People at my age are getting married and stuff and I didn't even have my first kiss #WhatsWrongWithMe

[Self Harm's Doll @Secret_Angel97]

I'm so lonely....

[❤️‍🔥 @losingxhope]

i think needing someone is a very scary and dangerous thing, because what if one day they decide they no longer want you in their life?