Xavier

(Grant’s burner account). Drank too many firstborn/christian/homeschool/people-pleasing guilt cocktails. Time to let it all out and be authentic.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Am I really going to have to listen to Swifties defending one of the biggest Chads in the NFL? The dude uses “Jabroni” unsarcastically. There’s already enough injustice in this world. 🥴

[Taylor Swift Updates @SwiftNYC]

Taylor Swift and Travis Kelce leaving Arrowhead together after the game (Chiefs won!) !!! 🥹

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Is there anything more main character and nauseating than a couple next door, loudly singing Disney songs? 😳

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

@ShuklaAngira I’m completely dumbfounded. I had this problem too when I first started, but that was because I was homeschooled and was at a community college taking algebra classes. How are university students not prepared??

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

How do university students not know basic algebra? I spent almost 3hrs with a student on 1 question of finding Qd Qs equilibrium! How?!?

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

I don’t believe love is zero sum as a principle, but I’m having a hard time not believing that is the case for me. Every time I receive love, I have to give it back with interest. And interest rates are severely rising.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

I thought the reason why I believed you should remain friends with your ex is because the friendship part of the relationship should be valid. Now I realize it’s more about validating my identity. Being completely cut off feels so dehumanizing.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

My lifelong experience of repeated unrequited love taught me that I’m not worthy of the love I desire. But the one time I do acquire it, it is everything I imagined it would be, until it’s ripped mercilessly out. Why does it have to be this way?

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

How did I get so close to love and when I step out in faith towards love only to find I’m following its shadow?
I leap forward and find only vapors catch me, and monsters await.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Great, not only do my days torment me with the crushing weight of anxiety, but now my nights are haunted by heartbreak replaying every way I get mercilessly fucked over. I can’t sleep.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Visiting family & I ask mom how’s work going. She says it’s so strange, so many people are out sick; never seen anything like it. I say it doesn’t surprise me since there’s still COVID & now no restrictions. Mom doesn’t respond. I guess we’re just pretending it isn’t real now??

[BrooklynDad_Defiant!☮️ @mmpadellan]

This is HILARIOUS!

Republican Jesus is the funniest thing you will see on this site ALL DAY. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

@anxhal23 @crembrulemily It has a strong signal, but I needed to increase observations for my power analysis. 🤗🤗

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

I just bought a ticket for my mental health, but my poor mental health caused me to procrastinate. That then caused me to wait until the price doubled to buy the tickets. Now my mental health is crumbling because I got screwed over on pricing. 🤡

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

I loathe Bethel Church, the Johnson clan, the charismatic evangelical ideology, and their thinking they are some sort of spiritual superheroes, but damn Bethel’s music is like is crack when you need to comfort.

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

As I continue to deconstruct my faith, it’s interesting how in a moment of crisis, a priest quoting scripture to me & listening to “Your Love Never Fails” by Jesus Culture is where I found solace. 🤦‍♂️

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Holy shit, it took 31 years and plenty of close calls, but I missed my flight. How the fuck does someone miss a flight while being at the airport for 7 hours???

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

I am aware I’m a prisoner of my own environment. I am prone to place my narrative on other’s experience in addition to being a white savior. But how the hell do we as a global community fail to act when the loss is so great?

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

Once every few months, I become unable to ignore the suffering of those near and far away, and it completely breaks me. How do I cope with the privileges and resources I have, knowing others more deserving don’t get the same opportunity?

[Xavier @SglOriginTakes]

In “One More Light” Chester says “They say, ‘who cares if one more light goes out in a sky of a million stars?’ …but I do.” It haunts me. How do we go on when tragedy strikes every day?