i dont know if i will ever be happy again. what was supposed to be fond memories just brings me sorrow. i dont know if i want to be happy again. i dont know if i want to try. i just want to disappear. i just want to sleep.
sometimes i just wish i wasnt a fucking idiot. sometimes i wish my brain would be nice to me. i wish i didnt hurt like this all the time. i want it to stop. i want it to end.