Andrea

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

it also makes my working memory muuuuch better, i remember word for word some shit i studied or read. And i always struggled with memory for words, now shit remains there easily asf.

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

noopept and centrophenoxine been making me better my orgasms sometimes are like 5% of ehat they were, i can now dream and remember some of it and my anhedonia has gotten better to the point i can game for hours. Sucks cuz it means i suffer from neurotoxicity but oh well

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

i think im gonna take 7-8dhf when i do this cycle again or just take a higher dose of centrophenoxine, shit works even if its just a nootropic

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@valev_28 @Bogdank99 @Maiorum__ @DelMax64 bisogna essere realisti, non si cambierà nulla senza l'uso della violenza, sopratutto se gli altri la praticano su di te. Per me è da inferiori aspettarsi di cambiare qualcosa a parole, dovremmo fare come vlad dracula tepes con gli ottomani, e mettergli nelle spiagge come trofei

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@ranieropipponzi @DelMax64 intanto è statisticamente più probabile che quel musulmano sia un criminale che uno che lavora e contribuisce, quindi si sarebbe giusto. Poi se te vuoi farti ammazzare in nome del progressismo fai pure ma non ha senso considerando che questi son + conservatori dei nostri "fasci"

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@valev_28 @Bogdank99 @Maiorum__ @DelMax64 sgozzare tutti i maiali uno ad uno, infine sgozzare anche i politici. Se poi si potesserò suicidare anche tutti i conservatori e sinistri estremi sarebbe il top ci sarebbe un futuro per il paese

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

cant understand how you can be progressive and pro these subhumans when they're more conservative than any of our "nazi" conservatives, you have to be retarded to be pro this.

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

istg none of these guys contribute to anything, all the n1ggas that ive known were either drug dealers, addicts or people who do nothing and go around molesting people. Even most of the second generations are like this, i've known only few that arent a burden to society

[End Wokeness @EndWokeness]

African migrant just tried to behead a white man in North Belfast, Ireland. Video is too graphic to post.

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

i gotta take an mri at the end of the month cuz apparently i have some weird mass in my spleen, if on top of chemical lobotomy i also have other conditions im kms i cant cope with it all

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

instead im a fucking eunuch that serves the emperor 🙏🏻 chemical lobotomy ruined me

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

i wish i was a japanese warlord during sengoku jidai, or a chinese one during the 3k era like imagine having 128 children with 100 different concubines and being remembered in history. The shit these guys must have felt is insane, knowing they were making history

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@WolfnParchment microdoses with stimulants make my anhedonia a little better tho, but its not good for the heart so i just avoid it since i take stimulants to study

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

finally managed to find some benzos, if all goes well i'll try shrooms + benzos and see if beside the anxiety there is some emotion or if my brain is so fried it can only feel that

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@WolfnParchment psychedelics now only make me anxious, i havent tried macrodoses aince i got panic attacks last year but i fear they'd give me daily panic attacks too. When i only had sexual dysfunctions ajd some emotional numbness they worked, only with ketamine tho

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

gradually since the amount of the receptors was higher i got worse symptoms. If this is the case, it really might be simply too late for me and nothing will ever make it better. Maybe destroying them again and upregulating them in the following period but i think its impossible

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

i fear that it may be too late, i think what i suffer from is 5th2a neurotoxicity/downregulation which lead my brain to create new receptors to compensate, it would explain why i got worse with time since high density of 5ht2a is linked to dpdr/anhedonia and by recovering

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

does anybody know any book like no longer human? i need more doom

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

@pssdganjedi id be okay without the sexuality if i could feel emotions and use them for art, that way id have nothing distracting me for pursuing virtuosism. But no emotions nor pleasure is hell in earth, sometimes i feel like a pair of flying eyes

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

i hate hearing people who know nothing about 5his telling me "oh just take an antidepressant", then they think that i dont care about my life because i dont wanna take one and think im weird when ITS THE OPPOSITE. If only they were in my shoes

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

has anybody ever seen someone get better with antidepressants? istg they dont help even in rare cases, the only people i see who say helped them are people who are numb and think not caring is being better, people irl i know who say that either have bpd or are batshit crazy

[Andrea @Shulkinaa]

like has there ever been a single case of anhedonia getting better from them? True amhedonia not oh im too depressed so i cant enjoy this or dont want to do nothing. Its also insane that a lot of stuff that isnt anhedonia gets called anhedonia so that they can say its treatable