No selfish shit but I've been about me first lately and the happiness is unmatched dawg.
I've done without to see people happy countless time and the energy was never reciprocated.
That grieving doesn't ever stop never ceases to shock me. Any piece of good news & you reflexively think of sharing it with that one person, only to realise for the millionth time that they're no longer around. Punch in the gut every damn time
Your parents can be toxic too. They were never loved as a child, so they never learned how you love you. They treated you the way they were treated. Forgive them, they didn't know any better.
When everything starts going wrong & you feel like giving up, if there's no one there for you, turn to Allah. He is the best listener! When it seems like nobody cares, Allah cares. When it seems like nobody is there for you, Allah is ready to listen.
During the 1980s, the queen tried to stop Princess Diana's work in HIV advocacy, telling her to do something "more pleasant." But Diana ignored her, instead using her platform to tackle stigma and offer comfort to terrified people sick with what was then a terminal illness.